JOURNAL ENTRY: Life has been a monstrous rollercoaster ride

6-2-09 - Good morning everyone,

Life has been a monstrous rollercoaster ride this past couple of days, even moreso than the past 7 years. As most of you probably already know, Dr. George Tiller, a late-term abortionist in Kansas, was shot and killed this past Sunday. The shooter is my youngest daughter's sperm donor, my ex.

When I first read the initial report that Tiller was killed by a 51 year old man from Merriam, Kansas, my gut told me that it was Scott, but the reports had not yet confirmed it. Within about an hour and a half later, Scott was named as a person of interest in the case and had been incarcerated.

Sunday, I was immediately overcome with sheer joy, because now everything I have been saying about this man for the past 7 years was now being realized by others. Also, my daughter, myself, and my family, would now be free from the wiles of Scott.

Yesterday, the sickening realization that I had "slept with the enemy", hit me square between the eyes. To think that I had lived with someone capable of taking the life of another, was more than a little unsettling to me.

Today, though, the reality of everything in my relationship with Scott over this past 8 years, is looming in front of me. I'm finding myself feeling so very sad, not only for myself, but also for him.

I'm also greatly concerned that the media will scout us out. We have our attorney to deflect any inquiries to, but just being on the radar screen of anyone in this type of situation, is attention that I do not want for my family. My daughter does not know who Scott is to her and it would not be in her best interest to tell her now.

I would greatly appreciate all of your prayers during this extremely trying time in my family's life. Thank you.

~~Sue