JOURNAL ENTRY - Sinking Reality

6-2-09 - I greatly appreciate your support and wish that I could scoop up all of you and be encircled by the blessing of your presence. The reality of it is all sinking in today, which has brought about a dynamic of deep sadness that any of this has taken place. Watching the news reports about someone I once loved and gave my life to, is hitting me deeply. I'm sure it would all be easier, if my daughter had never entered the equation, so I have a reminder every day of poor choices I have made in my past. Yes, he is a lunatic and deserves everything that he has coming to him, but there is/was a human side to him that at one time had my interest.

I'm sure this is all mixed up and I just don't have it in me to even try and sort it out. Sorry.